Warrior Within: Yoga with Elise at Wailea Beach, Maui, HI: October 28, 2018
Learning how to be be a warrior and feminine, powerful and graceful.
You know, there are no coincidences in life. Not really. Its all orchestrated on such a high level, and I don't pretend to know about how all that works, but what I do know is that it does. I try to pay attention to what's coming into view, both the love and the tight spots. They are so close. Its such a thin veil in the mind, and lighting speed, like between loving yoga and the beach, to hating the sand all over your mat and getting fried by the morning sun. Why can’t I just stay on happy?
I have a long love affair with Hawaii, and its deeply satisfying to be here on Maui, by the beach, and in my little bungalow. I love this little casa so much I washed her today. With the help of my friend Craig, a couple of brooms and a hose, we gave her a big bath. I didn't know you could wash a house. All I intended to do was rinse off the front patio and side deck. But you know how that is, once you start to clean one thing, it reveals the untidiness of another, and you have a choice to carry on the work in front of you, or put the project off, because, well, you can find a million reasons. Just like life, its easy to pretend the mess isn’t there.
Cleaning my house in more ways than one. Warrior spirit also means cleaning the thoughts that hold me back from going for it, big time. Write the book, do the retreat, teach the classes. And also stay supportive of David’s touring. These are all things I love and to do them all, I need the fierce strength of a warrior goddess.
Bright and early I was up, before dawn. My good friend Elise, who I haven't seen since last year, was teaching a fundraiser yoga class, hosted by Lululelmon, for breast cancer. It was exciting, and when she jumped right in with a warrior theme, believe me, I listened. Its a key element in my practice at present, and I’m interested to learn how to stay inspired, strong, unwavering to big dreams that on a bad day seem simply impossible. What’s messy and untidy and hoiding me hostage is my relationship to money and self worth. Why is it so easy to jump on and support David in his art and so darn difficult to show up for myself? How to stay true to my dreams and passions? How to take my art seriously enough to make it priority. I’m closer today than I’ve ever been, yet also so terrified that I washed my house instead of sitting down to write this blog. Or write anything. I mean, how am I going to finish this book if I don’t write?
Enter the warrior. A warrior spirit is not a “us versus them", its about your higher self and your lower self, and the never ending struggle to be your best self. That's worth fighting for. And it so happens that many of the great warriors in yoga are also goddesses.
Elise and I went for coffee and a catch up after her class. We enjoyed a beautiful ocean view, delicious Four Seasons coffee, a long depth-of-the-heart discussion about self worth, marriage, relationship to earning power, and relationship to the power of earning. I wonder if its a ‘woman thing’ , a sign of emerging warrior-goddesses, or if its a run of the mill concern that occupies most people?
So sitting by the sea, a great yoga class, sharing a morning with a really wise friend left me so inspired and energized, so warrior-ized, I washed my whole house.
And also tidied up the layout of my book.
And also wrote this blog.
And also watched sunset.
It seems that being a warrior-goddess is honoring what’s deep in your heart by actually doing the things you love, that nurture you, and give yourself that extra shine. It worked for my sweet bungalow and it worked for my mojo today.
I’m chalking that right up there with important things I’m learning to do, along with how to scrub a house and make her sparkle anew.
Health, Love, and Rock n Roll
What started out as a little rinsing of the deck floor turned into washing my whole house. I rehung our outdoor drapes and placed serveral pink and white rose bouquets. Love is never a waste of time.