Safety and A Truer Sense Of Self: A Home Practice: April 15, 2020: Reno, Nevada
Walking around with the “I am safe” mantra.
My unmanicured feet are finding home on the ground. The earth feel so damn good. Staying in one place is heavenly, for the most part, anyway.
I’ve spent the better part of this last decade touring. I’ve answered the call of duty and of paycheck. Coming home in the haze of a pandemic though, i intuitive knew not much will ever be the same for me, including my relationship to touring which by all accounts has held me safe for so many years. To have my feet dance upon my well worn yoga mat this morning with a loud and clear I AM SAFE without touring or any hope of touring again in the near future (and daresay maybe forever) is a moment to behold.
I didn’t want to rush through this realization so I hung out in Warrior II pose a while this morning. It’s the first time in months I’ve relaxed enough that I don’t have to force my shoulder blades down my back ,giving room for my ears to open to more than just messages of survival. My feet firmly planted on the ground with such sensitivity I could feel the accupressure point of Bubbling Spring irrigate my whole body.
I’ve never really made this place in Reno my home. It’s pleasant enough, it’s easy and convenient, not to mention a tax haven. I’ve resisted snuggling into her and the vibe in our house has been uncluttered, but also devoid of love and personality. We were to put it on the market during this tour but that’s all changed, so instead I’m literally making the best of things by fixing the decks which were badly in need of repair. I’m opting for a clean and simple design, a choice whereby I must sacrifice my collection of Buddha statues, which today look overstated anyway. Literally my image of God us changing in front of my very eyes. Or perhaps it’s changing behind my eyes with my newfound felt sense of security and safety.
One of the most important relationships in the body is between the Kidneys and the Heart. The Kidneys nourish the Heart while the Heart warms the Kidneys. A harmonious balance helps calm and stabilize the adrenals, that sit a top our kidneys. It doesn’t mean much to tell yourself I am safe. You have to feel it to believe it. The steady practice of yoga helps keep the channels open and flowing.
No wonder Warrior pose felt so good. God is making herself known. I’m starting to love where I am, and more importantly who I am. I’m safe. I’m home. I’m coming back to life. It’s bubbling up and teaching me to stop waiting for the other shoe to drop. It’s already happened, leaving my foot naked and bare; and open to new information from wise Mother Earth, who seems to be more interested in guiding me not to just survive, but thrive.
Health, Love, and Rock and Roll